So Much...

Well readers, next weekend Sky and I are travelling down to Phoenix for a region karate championship, which I am super excited for, and at the same time I'm super nervous.  I've never competed in anything like this before and I'm freaking out just a little.  :-p  Sky has complete faith in me though, and if he has faith in me then I must not be nearly as mediocre as I think I am.

We're still figuring out the particulars of the trip, but hopefully that will all be ironed out this week.

The weekend after that we are hoping to finally move into OUR OWN PLACE!!!  We found this adorable little house by the temple, and the landlords seem really nice.  It's not going to be anything fancy, and it has a few interesting little quirks, but it will be ours, and that makes it perfect.  Right now we are just busting our tails to save up the deposit and rent for the first month.

With all this extra working, we have hardly gotten to see each other, and the few minutes we do, we are usually doing something like seeing a piece of furniture that someone has for sale or seeing a few friends we haven't seen in a while, or he's sleeping.  I miss him so much it's insane.  I think I'm going to finally bite the bullet and go to Biolife and sell some plasma.  Getting stuck with a needle to take some pressure off of Sky is worth it.  I've scheduled an appointment, and I'm scared out of my mind, but hundreds if not thousands of people are doing it every week, so it must not be all bad.  I haven't told Sky yet because if I don't go through with it he will be disappointed.  Again.

I'm just trying to man up a little for the next few months.  They are going to be tough and I have to be brave.

Keep it real readers.

Surviving...

Well readers, I'm rounding out my third week of school, and so far so good.  I fell a little bit behind due to my first cold in almost a year and a half, but I am gallantly making my way back into being on top of my school work.  Work is going fine.  It makes for a bit of juggling, but it keeps me on my toes, and I appreciate that to be honest.  Sky and I had an opportunity to have a whole weekend alone, which was magnificent.  I got to make dinner for my husband and be an awesome little wifey.  I loved it.  Walking all over the house in my undies is awesome.  We are apartment hunting later this afternoon, so that little taste I had over the weekend of what married life really could be will be an every day reality.  My own kitchen, where I know where everything is.  I can't wait!  I love cooking and baking.

I love embracing my weirdness.  I've really let it hang out since I've been with Sky, and since we've been married it has really been great.  He loves me.  Even my weirdness.  All of it.  And I love him and all of his weirdness too.  I don't think I have ever been quite this happy in my life.  Not even as a kid.

However, I went off of one of my psychotropic medications a few weeks ago.  It was the longest week of my life.  I got dizzy and paranoid, and I felt so...ugly.  Every day was worse than the previous.  I finally had to call the pharmacy and get it filled.  By the end of the night I felt less dizzy.  Two days later I felt calm.  Then I felt happy and normal.

I'm so happy for better living through chemistry.

There is no shame in antidepressants.

Keep it real readers.